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 I feel at the moment writing these things, will have more or less doped, or strong or weak personal feelings. I'm not a saint like, doped how emotional you, did your writing is to vent their emotions, to borrow a famous phrase college dorm, No matter how many emotional things, but they are my true feelings or Audition, but also a little romance summed up in the treatment of small Raiders, only a last resort by reference.

Today is 2010-8-28, I have lost count of the formal split in the end we are still on the 6th of 2010-7-5. Emotions too intense few days, my mind completely chaotic state. To be honest, I do not even know if it is not a relationship, do not know atop the definition in his girlfriend, I have counted, if someone asked him, I think his answer is it Yes ah, If you forget it, it changes the nature of a lot of things. Moreover, the beginning is my initiative.

fact, to say when I started to like him, do not know him, know him much of what is learned from someone else. Did not say many words before, the most impressive is the big look, I choose them a few quarters, a high number of teachers in a school, and sometimes some others did not take a pull, but the impression of him is not impressed. I know we're together, he said: outcome of what will happen.

I do not want this feeling exhausted all my strength, since I do not want to despair of love. I do not think I just need time to adjust. Just thought had to do those things, suddenly some introspective feeling.

If I do not know that he not send me, my summer of 2010, will completely different. First time to practice the night they were called to battle brother eating quarters Pig, see Then I do not know why, perhaps just the whim of a text message to me - brother to war tomorrow, and I sent you? I know he may just be a whim or a courtesy only. Since the people have taken the initiative, and I really have no reason to not allow holding the shelf, is not.

come here, you should first work, like many people, have to face many changes and difficulties. But no matter how tired, I insisted to him every day, send text messages, talk around the trivia, interesting things. I did not think at that time, there is no deep thought - Although many text messages he Hui is seen very Mingxian are patronizing (and later together, he said, who ignores you when I do not want to), but back then I felt sturdy as long as I kept the effort, he will one day be a serious back to my message, will take the initiative to contact me. I remember texting and flies: To dig a hole in his heart. If it hurt, so after treatment and then slowly! I do not know that I know the end if I just dig a hole to himself, will also be so I kept early insistence, he finally gave me one day, take the initiative, sending a message and tell me they want to collectively Shanxi quarters to play. At that time our department at the dinner, I ah the excitement!

and to students with passing a stitch when shopping store, kind of give him a sudden impulse to embroider a must, so I chose a small pendant Grey Wolf. Tell the time flies, flies just made a word - speechless! Before and flies shopping, visiting with her cross-stitch store, has been lamenting how much I have suffered a blow to sit down and embroidered it over and over again, endless stuff. Just to see a beautiful purse, so I looked soulful meaningful glance flies, and she returned a look of contempt, said, She said she fully embroidered Wolf can not imagine what I like. (She's worried about is right under my very hard, embroidering finished, found on both sides of the fundamental asymmetry, managed to sew! I'm not cut out. He got, said, is the Wolf ah! waste of time, ah, the next day looked as small cross-eyed, with little expectation of a strong and look forward to when he got the reaction.

they were out to play, I will ask them where, and then check that place them under the weather and location on the map, I told him that every time check, I think I left him more recent. In fact, I do not during this period was not tired, so very naturally asked him - you really do not like me! Is it not feel a thing for me! He always said that my problem is too sharp, too difficult to answer! So I think - not that he does not like me, as long as I would work harder, then harder, we are hopeful. In fact, this is a process that should be considered a common process, we have just started to like each other,cheap UGG boots, the other did not respond to the situation think that maybe I did not need his reaction, as long as love is like him; when he started some reaction, so to think he should be a few more responses, and so on. When unrequited love into a love, it needs the joint efforts of both sides and give each other, I always thought that true love should be independent of ideology and identity to each other, their common patience and effort (of course, the body's chemical reactions) , which is built on the basis of equality with each other, not side gingerly, one unscrupulous. I think through my efforts, and ultimately we can cross the front of the stage, to build our love.

the second time he sent me, I sat at night at eight cars line up waiting for the bus, he looked at me, my eyes were suddenly on the red, then turned away, Tears began to patter down out. At that moment, I wish that train never came, although the next day to go to work. Later cars really late, late more than nine, I saw late, said excitedly: Next to an eight-year-old look of anxious little boy gave me a very surprised face additional contempt. With the crowded, I took his arm, that moment felt really hypocritical, Particularly large number of people in the car, and he helped me put things away, we should go, and I took his hand, really extremely sad farewells, brewing for a long embrace, the crowd was packed hastily and anxiously hurried. I especially want him to go on a trip can not be properly Channel, and he did not promise life and death, go on easily able to come up - the hateful China Railway! Looked at his back suddenly thought our only chance to get together another time to really help, and holding the phone to start whining cry, was really unable to control, but simply unable to manage this is not the campus a crowded train cars in China. He stood out the window, under countless people's curiosity, surprise, watch the fun, compassion, envy ,,,,,, eyes, on the phone said, a! He said you do not like, I feel especially guilty, I said, tell me - it is difficult for a man, you will scare away a man's. I do not know is not the case. He replied, still the phrase Or not enough love to go to change it for me now seems to have arranged a good life. Oh, maybe not stupid, just do not want to admit it!

roommate from his mouth one day that - , although far to that moment I did not get what, but felt that I had a point of trust and hope that the poor have become an instant foam, I stood on the balcony of the canteen, and he was trembling, called fly completely speechless. Cried for half an hour later, decided to go to the supermarket and buy a bunch of beer, drink stumbled when sent him a text message - cell phone clutched in his hand fell asleep, the next day to see him back to the message - not a good person! Made almost no swear by. So I think, perhaps, we have nothing here, is destined to result, not because of reality, not because it thousands of miles to cross the distance. But a willing and I never dare admit the reason - a woman between us.

I was naive to believe in him that they have ended and no longer have any time, so I restored the energy. I think I want to show the real me to give him a look, I'm trying to get him to learn more about me some, that time I believe that if he really understood that I was so See car tire car, (Ever since I thought of his old Chairman Mao's phrase - to the zodiac can be under the ocean to catch turtles! Why people can be confident that lofty,Bailey UGG boots, but I was so ridiculous it! Gap ah, the gap! ) A friend told me a man's heart and actions have a long way to go between. The consequences of energy recovery is suddenly lost sense of intelligence and, therefore, in order to buy him a present, I Pidianpidian run over the city streets. I wear high-heeled boots with Luchi serious disease, alive to wear two feet angry fish-eye-like bubble. The result was not selected to the right, I fought in Taobao, immediately to open the side of the online banking, that action, and just in! The day before yesterday found my favorites in Taobao many options to give him the gift of time, then deleting one by one - can not say the feeling. The results for various reasons, Taobao buy or not to be. When then went to Shanghai and ran pick out things to toss back and forth, and finally himself stuck in Shanghai, the World Expo, ah, ah man, too much it! What this momentum to dry my Tama De fragmentation ah! So I Pidianpidian spent my first month's wages he bought a half to a gift, (which seems really is a very heartless thing ha , the typical heavy-color type) up to now, he does not know which of the I do not want to say how much I, ah, you do not see how to fuck! Do not want to be a nose like a tear was negative a! I have to admit, I'm happy this process. Even that seems to cross stitch eyeful out of the flowers. I do not want to unable and unwilling to deny that indeed was the joy.

to get off the first time I saw him I was beautiful, and I came in 20 degree rainy day wearing a knee-length skirt and chill! Because the tight-fitting skirt, not too easy to sleep, the opposite can be said to make a giant man, I'm on the train from the start, said to his mother from his girlfriend to his home last I was hearing voices ,,,,,, , as if there is a mouth from the inside in front of a bunch of weird symbols emerge. He said,UGG bailey button, you really coercion, exhausted the means! (I always understand the words he said there is a way I think I did all worth it meant). Yes ah, I admit, I did use some small thoughts, such as choosing the car to sit during the day, evening, night, people are usually more vulnerable feelings of some. I would like to buy him a gift, I will care about the man ,,,,,, pains, but the efforts, but also do not care about the man arrived, but a movement, a look.

back to school is the last time in mid-June, half of the time considered that we truly live, meet, he said I dress like a butterfly, then I want him human butterfly. We eat potato powder Old school there, I said I would like yogurt, he spent half an hour go to the supermarket to buy a version of the yogurt, I believe, was he really wanted to I bought. Zuo Juhui school, I leaned against his shoulder, he took the initiative and interlocking my fingers, when I have to se the, ah, if it is the words of the TV screen should be all around us pink heart-shaped bubble ( really vulgar, huh, huh). At that moment I really want time to stop there, so I am very gentle and the master said, We hold hands when swinging on campus, I said: knot it! you? Britain is also happy to fart! IQ really admire you!

the last ten days filled with busy, tense thesis preparation, n number of graduation dinner, intractable sadness, and I meet him every day looking forward to. Because he has been busy during the day and we all have our things to be busy, so only one or two hours at night to meet, we held hands in the campus Guangdang, like an ordinary couple who, I pretend we This could have been so Guangdang, we made an appointment do not say farewell. I think the other twenty hours every day I seem to only two hours and prepared for this, and now want to come, that time seems to live in their own fantasy of them. Many graduates do not handle well,bailey UGG boots, my college graduation and the three countries are deeply branded to kill his mark. Lost a bunch of college is very important to do notes, there are two I particularly regret. No way, if only he was in the mind, no longer fit into anything else. Later, I will remember him and discuss things like the next day to reply, is this evening to answer the teacher or the next morning to buy the water buy, dinner on the table and others Pinjiu, he said, because I was, though very, very small thing, but I think I was his woman. I also saw when I said decidedly not looking for him, to contact him, he quietly wiped tears. Except of course the last time, ended in failure every time before, or unpromising looking for him.

I go first, he did not send me the night before leaving I told him that if he said nothing to the initiative, I left for this feeling, I did all I could do , even if the pain later, it happens again, as long as you do not find me, I would not find you - after all I'm just an ordinary woman, and I love that person also needs to respond, not to just to pay great not asking for rewards. He said I thought we were on the end of the story.

I first returned home, the bedroom of a girl called home to see the scenery of Jiangnan-like, which has been boss laughed, !, The next day he went to his thousands of miles away from home texting on the train told me that he regretted it and would like me to ask me or him to come over. I really want to have Joseph died, and this recovered and seems to be doubling back the feeling, I think I'm going to be sweet and drowned. So I and Nana, said the Fly, uh, the New Year when I'm going over there to see, look at. Joseph began to plan how it was how to. Flies extremely silent and said - this thing do not fly the whole process is very! You may have to clear! Na son very sad to say - if you really go, a chance to meet the special little shopping. I also infinitely fascinating to say, I'm going to visit next, so I'm well nest, you go! - Tempered is such an idiot. Nap time, he gave me a message, I said I was sleeping, leave me alone. Laughing dream of holding a cell phone.

Then, two days later, I saw him at school the woman passed the photos, but also with some rather ambiguous word description. I admit that moment, I am sorry, I regret I have liked this man, this in my 23 birthday and he uttered the first time the phrase At that time my mind is blank, eyes red as if only that woman's dress in the rock. I see the pictures in the company, when Duanzhaobeizai in water, how I want to throw the cup, and then asked him to call! But I did not, I can not! Zhou Zhou said as Now if you also rushed to his office, you will be despised - 'What a woman did not goods'! Went to the bathroom to cry a few times, I do not know how to coming to work for. To the quarters I called his phone, to say the phrase in the teeth of the study of the n times my heart,

I can still hear the most in this life do not want to hear, know how to begin! Mixed with anger, grievances, sadness, betrayal, deception ,,,,,, overwhelming complexity of the emotions I am completely overwhelmed, feeling numb, the nail of his left hand clutching the hand out of the bloodstain, the phone can not hold out on the ground, there is no go pick up the slightest effort. Do not want do not want to experience such feelings!

so our story is over, with Zhou Zhou as saying Parents disown Britain uh uh Britain ran the Northwest. behind you find he has an affair with that woman, uh, a little spectacle of it! During that most difficult days, and all the romance of the plot should be like the bar, abandoned the party could not eat sleep well. Two weeks, almost every day a trance, each meeting did not know what they say. Eat some things like vomiting, seems to be able to dream about every night he dreamed, though not remember a dream, but wake up every time a deep sense of loss and grief, unable to resolve. I thought if I really for the future and I do not have a cent depressive with men Biechu anything wrong, and I a big loss! I kept calling the gang harassed poor friend - Na Son, flies, zebra, Zhou Zhou, leaves,,,, the best the universe in this issue Related to the Internet to find some people is a loud noise out of the shadow of lost love, the results of a search, more miserable than I was, so much better! (Though a bit unethical to think, but it is) I think people like that can come over, I can only be superficial, sure no problem. But most of those posts seem tragically abandoned by men, I gnaw it to be so lucky! In fact, people who lost love

Han major principles are understood, heard the words of others to persuade many times, many times to hear a lot of lucky people, I think I was lucky. But the pain of which still need time to smooth, slowly come out. Large department lovelorn people should have been such a process - self-denial! I'm afraid this is the hardest part to accept. I'm not pretty enough, not interesting, not as sexy ,,,,,,

not thought to be revenge, not thought about going to see that woman in the end is the sort of person, I have Where better than her! But how revenge, others point not care, you can defeat all of my revenge! The end, only the eyes of others clown. Is not no hate, but the thought of those who have real happiness exists, that transformed into a deep hatred to sadness, torment repeatedly myself. Robust in much of the year is the envy of Peter and Zhan Funi how a pair of seven years of marriage and happy marriage with the Ministry that Zhan Funi heard a couple of years will begin a nervous cry, will receive the Pete's phone recording to listen back and forth late at night. How to have a tough heart to the good memories from seven years out of it, how tough it was a terrible process to ah. But Zhan Funi or coming out of the marriage even though they no glory but still alive and moving. I do not want to blame Pete or the meaning of Juliet, is ah, that was real love, now is not real love. Any of you Xunsimihuo is not love, is in love with someone else, how can you do! Yi Shu said: Life is too short, love and love carefully; can not love, do not delay someone else's love! From this point of view, I should be grateful to him later he told me that I do not want to hear in this life those darn words. Who advised me to clearly and logically, well organized zebra, ironically, also a glorious day in the Tanabata broke up, a man made more than eight cars back from Shanghai, Jinan. I do not know how to comfort him, but told him, if you want to accompany the permit, I will fight.

or phrase - to revenge, you live in the glory moving!

Yi Shu this time I read the novel lovelorn lovelorn diary written by a woman, is, of sympathy, but also feel less lonely. Never listen to sad songs romance, Jour-like song. 'd Heard a lot of people despised by many SHE songs, many of which are a strong girl romance written songs, and repeatedly listened to many times that song Feel uncomfortable repressed tears to be able to find a big run of films, the release of about pressure. Sometimes very nervous, the day when the bookstore to buy a book, the book suddenly began to patter of tears. Fortunately, these neurotic frequency is slowly reduced, slowly disappear. Han is watching the This book contains the works of many people, some are concerned about the attention the bottom of society, it is natural to divert attention - is the ah, and those struggling with death compared to people who I considered this a little romance and What does! Like a stone in which Kang,

every day after work, efforts to listen to Jiliguala the BBC and NPR, there are times I got a video CCTV9 found no understand the basic problem, to a handful of feeling bitter: gymnastics, that have learned will never betray you. Man this thing, you're the heart dig him, you do not know when he would appear too difficult for your heart long to see, then crumple it, and throw! Very tired at night to his body thrown over the bed, sound asleep, although still dream about him, but his appearance seems to be increasingly blurred. Long lost the ability to feel happy, I feel as if nothing can no longer make me happy from the heart. Day in line to see post, suddenly saw a really funny laugh, and slowly resume my instinct of low humor. One day after a month he had made inadvertently turn a text message - Piece of text messages are still not willing to delete. In writing these words, there a few red eyes, but did not shed tears. I think I'm recovering, one day can be recovered.

had really not a relationship can really destroy a person, unless he (she) combined with the self-destruct!

Sike's not complain that their loss, and let go of his counsel was not suspected, speed connection! Sike

Fortunately, I did not feel loss when, in addition to see photos of that moment, I was a little regret, the whole process, I still do not regret it. If you do it again, I do not know that he eventually could not put down that woman, I will do the same thing. I admit that is a sweet joy, and I will remember those beautiful pieces. I have always believed that time he was happy, sincere. I remember I asked him I believe that time he really likes me. After so much, I let go, and I think I not counsel it! Of course I still speed connection! Debating

write so much, perhaps the last lovelorn want to tell you, you can come over, but you need to brave the pace of your firm step, you are not alone. If you do not have is the sweet romance or, to when the fun.

if one day, my son or daughter said to me:

I am still hard life, I hope that one day I really glorious and moving, but has nothing to do with him. Liang Pi were determined to go out to eat. Go!